I did, I did, I did!

I finally committed enough to order my mat cutter! 

This is really big!

I used to have a manual cutter of sorts but the straight edge for it got lost years ago in a move and I’m not so good at the freehand thing.  I can justify this purchase with the fact that paying for the mat cutter itself is equal to having one painting framed at the shop.  It’ll pay for itself in no time at all….as long as I DO something with my art.  And I’ve got lots of experience matting and framing from the old days.

I have a deadline you see.  Well, a deadline of sorts.  If I don’t make it there’s always another meeting but I’m trying to get my art submission together for a local gallery before their next meeting (which happens to be occuring while I’m on vacation).  I think my work would be a good fit for this particular gallery (and yes, I’ve been shopping around and yes, it’s subject to approval (which has nothing to do with my art really but rather the saleablility for this particular gallery)).  I’m excited.  Really.  :)

So, it’s coming.  My cutter and some mat board.  I ordered colours just for my bleu horses as I’ve not got enough of my nudes to really promote them at this point.  Maybe later.  Maybe after I’ve cut my hours back at work and have more time to paint.

I was hoping to be able to go to massage school but it just doesn’t seem to be working out so I’m taking that as a sign (though I’m not sure I always believe in those) to pursue my art.  I’ve got talent…I just need to believe in myself and make the space that I need to create.  I’m one of those eccentric solitary types.

Life has been giving me a whole lotta curve balls of late but I’m trying my best to make the best of it all and keep moving forward.  The alternative isn’t so great you know.

This does not in any way mean that I’m not at the bottom of the well…but it does mean that I’ve not given up.  Even though I feel near it most of the time.  Guess all that stubborness is coming in handy again.

I don’t know what the future holds but I’m pretty sure I need to follow my dreams even if my daily desires aren’t able to be fulfilled.  And I’m pretty sure that the answer is less involved with fulfilling my needs than it is in helping others. 

And my art is a way to bring shiny things to others…

And you have to work with what you got.