did you ever feel further and further away from someone
no matter how often you talked
and you’re just not in the same place anymore
and the connection begins to fail
and you want to save something
but you really don’t
because it’s just not you anymore
or mabye you’ve become too jaded
not wanting to feel anything that felt like anything before
but no, really…
you’re just not that same person
and the conversations that you try to expound on keep coming back
all circle-ish
and you wonder if it’ll ever be the same again
though of course you know it won’t
and you wonder about the connections you let go before
and what they could be like now
if only…
all the while finding a new balance point
somewhere deep inside
i’m dancing better than ever before…
maybe that has something to do with hopping around on one foot for so long.
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January 31, 2009 at 4:58 pm
Anjolie
Mmm…
And maybe there’s something to be said for knowing when to let go….
And something to be said for forgiving yourself for not grabbing hold….
January 31, 2009 at 4:58 pm
Anjolie
Is it time to go dancing yet?
February 1, 2009 at 5:13 am
surjit
Very very true.
..’all the while finding a new balance point
somewhere deep inside..’
Deep thoughts.
God bless.
They say that balance is something that is maintained, which to me implies not holding still… I think that as we grow we are continually finding a new balancing point or maybe in this instance, that balance point just sinks in deeper and deeper. Thanks for commenting!
February 2, 2009 at 5:39 pm
tobeme
It is true, often times we must know when to step away and when to let be. The most difficult part is knowing what is in your control and what is not and realizing that often times it has nothing to do with you personally. We must be able to detach and still love.
That’s always been a hard one for me…to realize that it doesn’t always have something to do with me personally. Oh, and the detaching part too…but not the loving. I still love them all.
February 2, 2009 at 7:06 pm
Greenwoman2007
Thinking about you dancing and dancing better now post surgery makes me very, very happy for you. *smiles*
It’s odd isn’t it? That after all this time off I’d be dancing better? *shakes head and laughs* It’s true though. I can’t wait until I can tolerate dancing more…and dancing more often.
February 8, 2009 at 9:12 pm
kirk
Even with letting go, moving on, moving away. Everyone we let effect/affect our emotions will always be with us.
Every layer makes us who we are today. And some layers are very, very special. :)