i started going out to dance for the dance…
and for the haunting music.
but it wasn’t hardly a moment before i started worrying about whether or not i could belong.
and whether or not i’d ever be ‘good’ (let alone ‘good enough’).
or if i’d always be too clumsy and too big and too fat…
i get ready to go dancing tonight
after a year and a half of bad ankles and surgery and healing…and still healing
and an additional 15 lbs.
and i’m not worrying about whether or not i belong
or how good i’ll be
i’ll be as good as i can be
and i’ll talk to who i want to talk with…
and i’ll dance as much as i can dance before i can’t anymore….
because i’m back to dancing for the dance
and i belong to the music.
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May 31, 2009 at 5:14 pm
Arlene
First time I have come across your blog. I love the above post.
You just do whatever you feel like doing and don’t worry about a thing.
All the best.
Arlene
June 8, 2009 at 11:50 am
KT
Ooooh the trick about ‘good enough’ is to hold onto it even when you can’t feel it for awhile… It’s there, and you are…
June 8, 2009 at 12:43 pm
Cord
Yes….dancing is fun and playful…….!!!
(Oh and your messages did not show up on my “Bridges Post” – checking into it:)
June 8, 2009 at 5:29 pm
Anjolie
Arlene: Welcome to my little blog and thank you for leaving a note. I’ll keep on doing and I’ll work at that not worrying stuff. :) Hope to see you again.
KT: That would be The Trick…working on it. :)
Cord: Quite playful indeed! Reason #1 to not take it too seriously. ;)