I am feeling very blue today….but I had the day (mostly) to myself and so I sat myself down to finish my most recent bleu horse painting.  I often paint the horses whenever I feel like it (which is often at night) but then I’ll wait to paint their world until later (which is often during day-light).  Sometimes their world never gets painted. I do have one or two of those that are still waiting but perhaps there are times when the bleus just stand alone.  That’s where I’m getting at with those ones anyways.  But these guys wanted a world and who am I to deny them? 

In between paint drying I was working on building my website.  I am once again left frustrated but I am hoping that the company I am working with will respond to my ‘ticket’ in a timely fashion and that I’ll have something up and running soon.  If I can’t get it resolved within the week I’ll probably have to postpone until after our move…..wherever that move may be to, I still don’t have an answer on that.

So, trying to keep myself busy and out of the funk.  Today is quite funky though.  I think tomorrow I’ll go on a hike and see if that helps.  I am feeling very ungrounded because of the pending changes to come.  I don’t expect that feeling to go away until we get settled again so I am just doing my best to keep myself busy.  I like this working-from-home arrangement but it would be nice if the work flow was a bit more steady.  I get excited when I get a file in because there’s something so comforting about putting all the pieces together and it completely distracts me from my worries.  I think I like title insurance underwriting and yes, after 12 years of working on the closing side of the deal that does surprise me.  It’s wonderful that I’ll be able to do this no matter where we move to.

I did paint one little bleu horse today.  He tells my mood.  I can’t ever hide from my bleus….

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